It sure has been a long time since I've updated, huh? We got moved to Oklahoma over the summer. We bought a really nice house here and were able to sell our house in Little Rock in only two weeks. Wow. What a hassle all of that was! I'm so glad it's over. We are still not 100% settled into the new house but we are working on it. We opted for a newer house instead of an historic house like we had in LR. This one even has a central vacuum system. It's so much different. But we felt that we were tired of always having a work in process and wanted an end result. We have a beautiful backyard with a koi pond. The yard is sectioned out to be more like three yards than just one. The landscaping is wonderful. Unfortunately we had a tree die right after we moved in and it was central to the landscaping but we are hoping to fix that area in the spring.

Rico loves his job but it's been a lot of hard work and late hours. Hopefully that will change after the start of the new year. I'm working as well. But I'm really not sure yet if this is the job for me. Time will tell, I suppose.

I really miss Matt and Heather. I didn't see them all that often when we lived close and I'm afraid it'll just get worse. On the up side, I have seen my Mom more in the last three months than I'd seen her in the last three years.

I really feel like I should have more to say but my inner voice has been pretty worn out and tired lately. Maybe I'll just stop here and hope that I'll be able to get back into the swing of blogging soon.

Until later....

I will be so glad when this move is OVER! Today I spent almost 4 hrs with a home inspector telling me all the things wrong with my 96 yr old house, uh, dude, I knew that already! Except for two things I didn't know.... We have a leak under the laundry room sink and under the house in that area. Great. Just what I needed to hear. I already have to find a way to come up with $$ for closing, getting the porch fixed, fixing the kitchen ceiling and paying bills. What next? Take my firstborn child, please!

Speaking of children... Jake doesn't think he wants to move with us when (*cough* if *cough*) he's released. He wants to come back to LR. Right into the arms of his buddy who helped him get in trouble to begin with. Whatever....

Matt and Heather are about to move into a bigger apt. They are really down that we're leaving but understand the nature of the corporate beast. They came over Fri night and we had a really great visit. Matt says he's ready to get his GED since he's staring 22 in the face and doesn't want to be 30 and without, ya know? I sure hope he does it.

Rico likes his new job really well. I'm glad. He was so unhappy for so long, it's about time the man catches a break.

As for me? I'm the one dealing with the above mentioned crap, not to mention getting a realtor, dealing with the furniture being moved, being left behind... Oh, and my cats have started attacking me and the dogs at a drop of the hat. What's that all about? Rico thinks that since the animals are all pack animals, the cats are trying to assert their authority now that the alpha male is not in the house. He might be right. What ever it is, I wish they'd just stop. It's kinda scary to see your sweet little kittens launching themselves onto the head of a dog, growling and hissing and clawing. And when they attack me? That's just too weird.

Well, just some random thoughts. Guess I'd better go. Things to do, ya know? Yippee.......

Until later....

Okay, I'm drunk. But I drove for 6 hours so I'm allowed. Right?

Whatever....

I' ve always hated the hiccups and I have them. Kill me....

I HATE THE HICCUPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We're moving. Rico got a job and we made an offer on a house.

He's there, I'm here.

I won't see him for two weeks.

Hiccups suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We close on June 9th if we qualify. I don't see how we wouldn't but it's always possible.

I hate hiccups!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fuck it. I have hiccups and PMS so ya'll can kiss my ass.

Anywho... I am so tired. I have to sleep.

Hiccups seem to be done.

I have to sleep.

Until later.............

Okay, I've been away for awhile but I have a good reason. Rico got the job in Oklahoma. So, we are going to be moving. Yeah, uh, sucks in one respect... The whole selling the house here, buying a new one, finding a new job. God! I LOVE my job!!!!!! I'll never find a job that allows me to watch my soaps from 1 until 3 in the afternoon. Sigh. But I will be leaving one kid here and another in Mississippi. Hope Jake gets out soon. 'Cause he'll be coming to live with us. Matt and Heather are set to move into a new 2 bdrm apt in about a month. I never see him, but man, I'll miss him.

Anywho... we think we've found a house. It's not big and old like the one we have now, which btw I love my house, but it's nice and it's newer, so... yeah, I guess it'll be okay.

Okay, I'm really really tired so I'm signing off. I'll update as soon as I can but life is moving way too fast. I need a break.

Oh, I just had one! I went to New England for a week with my mom, aunt and cousin & had a great time. Boston is amazing. So is Cape Elizabeth and Kennebunkport. I'll have to post pics. But, I do feel like I suddenly need a vacation.

Kill me now....

Until later.....................................................................

I just want to apologize for my tirade last night. I just get really depressed sometimes and need to let it out.

God I'm depressed. I just spent 3 days trying to recover from the fuck up that Rico caused to my computer. No, that's not the serious part.... Although if you've ever spent 3 days trying to repair your computer and had to ended up having to blow out the entire system and re-install everything then you know how depressing it can be.

*sigh* I have one kid in prison. I have another son who doesn't even come to see me when my husband is out of town, he's too fucking busy. Well, who am I to take offense? I mean, for fuck's sake, I raised the kid, I was there every single time he needed something, I was there for every single tooth he lost, every scraped knee... Hell, when a friend of his hit him in the shin with an axe who took him to the emergency room? Who was there when he had kidney stones so bad he needed to have a fucking shunt put in to allow him to pass them? Who was there when they pulled the shunt out? Do you know what that entails? If not, let's just say it was not a pretty sight.... Who was there when he hit his head on a brick wall and had to have stitches? Who was there when he was two months old and there was blood and spinal fluid building up on his brain and he had to have surgery to install tubes to drain it off? Who was there for every single moment of his life?

Well, in case you haven't figured it out,,,, that would be me. But I guess I don't even rate on his things to do list. Like just last night, who did he call to get my credit card number to call and pay his insurance before they cut it off.... who did he promise to pay back today? Yeah, me. But did he even call today to arrange to pay it back? Hell no. Do I need the money back? Well hell yeah, my husband isn't working. The money tree has gone belly up.

The kid in prison.... Well, need I say more?

I'm just so depressed that I don't know what to do. I have to be strong for my husband as he looks for another job. He's depressed. He feels that at 47 no one want him, he feels too old. In a world where companies are so quick to get rid of the older people in favor of younger idiots who will take less money, I feel bad for him. He has the experience but no one will hire him, what's up with that? Also, companies feel like they can take 4-6 months to make a decision.... well, what about our bills? We had to use our 401K AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!! We will never retire.

Just kill me now.

Well, Rico is in Oklahoma. He had a job interview today and we really hope he gets the job. He has a good feeling and I hope he's right. I even had him go by and look at a house I'd found and he absolutely fell in love with it. Which is a little weird since it's a two story and he's always hated them. But he wants this job, he wants this house. We're keeping our fingers crossed.

Jake has been moved but it's not good. He's way down in the second place he went. It's a long way away from us but he says it's going to be okay. He's going to finish his time, and hopefully he'll make parole in August. I had wanted to go to his parole hearing but he doesn't want us to. He said he can do it on his own or not, depending on what the parole board decides. He's so upbeat sometimes. I know it's an act but it does make me feel a little less scared for him.

Other than those two things, not much else going on. So, not going to be a bore, just wanted to give a quick update. I'll write more when I know more...

Until later...